what the fuck is lou lamoriello doing? its like hes deliberately sabotaging the team i dont even understand we got as far as we did last season on the skin of our teeth, 2 mill for bryce salvador? seriously? Oh and were not definitely resigning Sergei? really? oh good...good move hammer.
Lou, jesus christ man.
City and Colour - Love dont live here anymore
fuck.
Im not writing today,i want to,but im not..why? because im having that stupid being home from tour with no job motivation problem i get. fuck you
i hate agnes's job,if i get rich im making her not work.
my mother has completely lost it.
i got ths hulk figure on my desk, its so bad ass, the face is perfect.
im kinda stoked for the record release show..alot.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Putting the gun down.
So as things always work with this fucking curse The Banner, we had to come home early. Personal reasons arose that made it impossible to go any further,so like the pussy i am i lurched home 4 days early.
lovely.
What made it all the more tough to deal with was the fact that this was far and away the best tour we had ever done, on all accounts. The shows were amazing, kids were seemingly very into what we were doing and really enjoying themselves and praising the new material and being very gracious (im still stunned by Frailty's response) . Secondly, but no less an issue, was the bond that we had formed with our label mates/ tour mates in such a short time. Going into this tour and seeing/hearing the other bands and knowing nothing of them i have to admit i had some pre-conceived notions and fears about what i could expect from the other dudes sharing the trail with us.
holy shit was i an asshole.
Not only were they some of the most dedicated and genuine musicians i have encountered in my years in a band but some of the most down to earth, approachable and likable people ive ever met.Synt,Elysia,Knights and AGAGAG all blew me away with their performances each night as well as their clear love for the music they made. I had heard all the bands prior, at least a few songs but the live show for each, specifically synt, melted my brain.
If you have not seen SYNT live and are into aggressive music at all it is imperative that you go see this band at once. I had heard the cd a few times before and enjoyed it but seeing them live each night, taking nothing from the merits of the recording itself, made the cd absolutely useless to me. What Drew, Andy and Fox put together each night was unreal and a distinct pleasure to get watch. Thats not to mention watching them (including Dallas) run around and jump like a bunch of spastic retard monkeys having a blast.
And Fox's negativity on the mic? Beautiful, gorgeous,perfect.
A girl a gun a ghost, these idiots , or hardcore-cockroaches as i call them have more heart than i have seen in a group in a long time. I think they broke down three times and had their van broken into once and still,somehow trucked it out to each show. These guys are unreal and their record is solid through and through.
Alaskan king...fuck.
i wish i had learned the lyrics :( (next time guys)
KNIGHTS OF THE ABYSS metal,fuck, metal. perfect every night, brutal every night, stoned every night..and they have a viking (THEE VIKING) on Keyboards. Why this band is only part time escapes me but they shred harder than most full time bands so fuck it.
Elysia, Zak,Chris,John,Steve and Garrett. Now this band combined may weigh as much as any one member of The Banner but they more than make up for it in energy. Its rare you encounter a band, especially in the "hardcore/post-hardcore/metal-core" genre that gets on stage and plays as hard as these guys do and clearly loves every second of it. There was not a show they played on the tour where you looked at any of the guys and thought there was any place they would rather be.
The song from Lion of Judas (which i absolutely recommend to anyone) i really dug, and hearing the new songs they played every night i was really into what i heard. It wasn't until i got home and really got to sit down with the lyrics and give them the attention they deserved that i realized just what kind of record it was. I feel with the current excitement about this band and what they did on Masochist (which is not a bad record by any stretch) they could've taken the easy way and put out a "sure thing" that wouldve been eaten up by the retards at large. Instead what they did is record a record that was clearly crafted with love for the music they had written and a desire to push themselves artistically in an atmosphere that is largely unkind to such a practice, or maybe they just didn't want to humiliate themselves in front of Kurt at God City i suppose it doesn't matter as the record is gold.
Ok enough cock sucking for one blog post, music aside im going to miss everybody in all of these bands. Im going to miss struggling to get to my feet and crawling out of the van in pain and being instantly put in a better mood because Fox will be laughing at something with that laugh of his or i get to being a complete dick to Chris for no reason other than hes small and reminds me of my little brother or the knights dudes whipping around on those weird skateboard stick things they had or AGAGAG stepping out of the van looking like they just escaped a disaster.
or seeing if Zak had survived the night because each day he looked like he might keel over at any minute.
im going to miss them all.
And its very weird for me to come to the realization that i, of all people me, suddenly has 26 more people i consider friends.
but im sure ill get used to it.
best summer ever.
p.s. I did not forget you Kooter <3
lovely.
What made it all the more tough to deal with was the fact that this was far and away the best tour we had ever done, on all accounts. The shows were amazing, kids were seemingly very into what we were doing and really enjoying themselves and praising the new material and being very gracious (im still stunned by Frailty's response) . Secondly, but no less an issue, was the bond that we had formed with our label mates/ tour mates in such a short time. Going into this tour and seeing/hearing the other bands and knowing nothing of them i have to admit i had some pre-conceived notions and fears about what i could expect from the other dudes sharing the trail with us.
holy shit was i an asshole.
Not only were they some of the most dedicated and genuine musicians i have encountered in my years in a band but some of the most down to earth, approachable and likable people ive ever met.Synt,Elysia,Knights and AGAGAG all blew me away with their performances each night as well as their clear love for the music they made. I had heard all the bands prior, at least a few songs but the live show for each, specifically synt, melted my brain.
If you have not seen SYNT live and are into aggressive music at all it is imperative that you go see this band at once. I had heard the cd a few times before and enjoyed it but seeing them live each night, taking nothing from the merits of the recording itself, made the cd absolutely useless to me. What Drew, Andy and Fox put together each night was unreal and a distinct pleasure to get watch. Thats not to mention watching them (including Dallas) run around and jump like a bunch of spastic retard monkeys having a blast.
And Fox's negativity on the mic? Beautiful, gorgeous,perfect.
A girl a gun a ghost, these idiots , or hardcore-cockroaches as i call them have more heart than i have seen in a group in a long time. I think they broke down three times and had their van broken into once and still,somehow trucked it out to each show. These guys are unreal and their record is solid through and through.
Alaskan king...fuck.
i wish i had learned the lyrics :( (next time guys)
KNIGHTS OF THE ABYSS metal,fuck, metal. perfect every night, brutal every night, stoned every night..and they have a viking (THEE VIKING) on Keyboards. Why this band is only part time escapes me but they shred harder than most full time bands so fuck it.
Elysia, Zak,Chris,John,Steve and Garrett. Now this band combined may weigh as much as any one member of The Banner but they more than make up for it in energy. Its rare you encounter a band, especially in the "hardcore/post-hardcore/metal-core" genre that gets on stage and plays as hard as these guys do and clearly loves every second of it. There was not a show they played on the tour where you looked at any of the guys and thought there was any place they would rather be.
The song from Lion of Judas (which i absolutely recommend to anyone) i really dug, and hearing the new songs they played every night i was really into what i heard. It wasn't until i got home and really got to sit down with the lyrics and give them the attention they deserved that i realized just what kind of record it was. I feel with the current excitement about this band and what they did on Masochist (which is not a bad record by any stretch) they could've taken the easy way and put out a "sure thing" that wouldve been eaten up by the retards at large. Instead what they did is record a record that was clearly crafted with love for the music they had written and a desire to push themselves artistically in an atmosphere that is largely unkind to such a practice, or maybe they just didn't want to humiliate themselves in front of Kurt at God City i suppose it doesn't matter as the record is gold.
Ok enough cock sucking for one blog post, music aside im going to miss everybody in all of these bands. Im going to miss struggling to get to my feet and crawling out of the van in pain and being instantly put in a better mood because Fox will be laughing at something with that laugh of his or i get to being a complete dick to Chris for no reason other than hes small and reminds me of my little brother or the knights dudes whipping around on those weird skateboard stick things they had or AGAGAG stepping out of the van looking like they just escaped a disaster.
or seeing if Zak had survived the night because each day he looked like he might keel over at any minute.
im going to miss them all.
And its very weird for me to come to the realization that i, of all people me, suddenly has 26 more people i consider friends.
but im sure ill get used to it.
best summer ever.
p.s. I did not forget you Kooter <3
Sunday, June 22, 2008
whats the point of even being here?
So im home sorta, and once again because of retardation on others people part i got screwed.
made some already stretched plans to be able to see ags but that feel through, awesome.Its only another week though so thats not too bad.
The shows have been really cool, last night we played NYC and it was definitely the best show of the tour, got to see Rick,Carl, Marc and Jerry and all the ferret fuckers and Erin and Natalie and crippen and joe and everybody came to see me which was great, definitely re-energized me on the touring and the record and everything. I wish greg and poodle couldve come but whatever.
it was an awesome time.
i think for the first time in the history of the band were going to be able to pay off a merch order upon our return from tour which is probably what im feeling best about right now.
im not gonna get too ahead of myself though, but for now im riding high, will the Karma boomerang of fuck fly back at my face 3000x as strong? history would say yes but ive got high hopes (bidip-bo)
im really looking forward to the vynil release and having the artwork have the full treatment it was meant too, i think im more excited on that than anything else.
i talked to will about writing an EP when i get home and he was stoked so that is gonna be amazing.
thats it fuck you.
made some already stretched plans to be able to see ags but that feel through, awesome.Its only another week though so thats not too bad.
The shows have been really cool, last night we played NYC and it was definitely the best show of the tour, got to see Rick,Carl, Marc and Jerry and all the ferret fuckers and Erin and Natalie and crippen and joe and everybody came to see me which was great, definitely re-energized me on the touring and the record and everything. I wish greg and poodle couldve come but whatever.
it was an awesome time.
i think for the first time in the history of the band were going to be able to pay off a merch order upon our return from tour which is probably what im feeling best about right now.
im not gonna get too ahead of myself though, but for now im riding high, will the Karma boomerang of fuck fly back at my face 3000x as strong? history would say yes but ive got high hopes (bidip-bo)
im really looking forward to the vynil release and having the artwork have the full treatment it was meant too, i think im more excited on that than anything else.
i talked to will about writing an EP when i get home and he was stoked so that is gonna be amazing.
thats it fuck you.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
poolside/san diego
sorta, i guess.
so yesterday was day 8 of tour, we played SOMA it was far and away the best show of tour, we did really good here last time we played also but that was in 2006/05? so i was kinda nervous there was like 400 kids there.
tours been awesome for the band, really good reactions and interest from the crowd, its definitely exceeding my expectations and kids are seeming to be really into the new songs and begging for the new record wich is nice.
the whole agnes thing seems to be going well, we text back and forth pretty often so im less worried about that.
last night we stayed with Doug Katz after the show and there was some ridiculous rager going on here. I talked on the phone outside for a bit and then me a polooch slept in the van which really wasnt all that bad.
i really want to start writing a new record.
im kinda slacking on my writing since i hit the road i thought it would be easier than it is but its definitely proving to be a pain in the butt. I kinda got spoiled with the microsoft word feature on my old phone maybe i can find one for the voyager,i have more than enough memory for that stuff.
im kinda stoked for the nyc show,i hope it does well.
i wish i could just go home after the shows on this tour.
i forgot to send a bunch of artwork to kids before i left for tour so now its just sitting on my desk or in my comp waiting for me to get home...oof.
tonight were playing in westlake...wtf is westlake?
The real Wolf-
so yesterday was day 8 of tour, we played SOMA it was far and away the best show of tour, we did really good here last time we played also but that was in 2006/05? so i was kinda nervous there was like 400 kids there.
tours been awesome for the band, really good reactions and interest from the crowd, its definitely exceeding my expectations and kids are seeming to be really into the new songs and begging for the new record wich is nice.
the whole agnes thing seems to be going well, we text back and forth pretty often so im less worried about that.
last night we stayed with Doug Katz after the show and there was some ridiculous rager going on here. I talked on the phone outside for a bit and then me a polooch slept in the van which really wasnt all that bad.
i really want to start writing a new record.
im kinda slacking on my writing since i hit the road i thought it would be easier than it is but its definitely proving to be a pain in the butt. I kinda got spoiled with the microsoft word feature on my old phone maybe i can find one for the voyager,i have more than enough memory for that stuff.
im kinda stoked for the nyc show,i hope it does well.
i wish i could just go home after the shows on this tour.
i forgot to send a bunch of artwork to kids before i left for tour so now its just sitting on my desk or in my comp waiting for me to get home...oof.
tonight were playing in westlake...wtf is westlake?
The real Wolf-
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Funerals.
Recently in an interview i was asked for some more insight to the sound Funerals on the new record. I found the request odd as lyrically i don't think the song is very strong or a standout by any means and wondered what struck the interviewer that made him want to know more. Regardless i answered the question and thought it would be something some people might be interested in.
"Well the song specifically isn't just about "Funerals" as in someone being buried, Don't get me wrong its definitely a huge influence for the song, but its also about long standing parts of your life that sometimes you maybe take for granted or don't realize how important to you they are and then they're suddenly gone and it either effects your life in a huge way or is just a catalyst for a flood of emotion or realization on how much things have changed,in this case for the worse.Honestly I'm an emotional retard, its feast or famine with me I'm either completely indifferent to the point i have no idea whats wrong with me or I'm just crippled with depression or anger to the point i cant function. For this reason i usually don't attend funerals, I'm either scared ill break down or nervous i don't look upset enough when my brain is actually going a thousand miles a minute.I'm not gonna mention specific names but the one person who passed away a few years ago that really had me thinking about where i started and where i was and the huge distance between the two was a fixture in my life when i first got into punk and hardcore as well as part of the scene where i really started figuring out who i was and wanted to be as a person. When he passed i hadn't spoken to him for about a year and i was just stunned,All these memories of me running around like a psycho with my equally ridiculous friends in the essex/bergen county hardcore/punk "scene", not giving a shit about anything, starting bands, drawing tshirts, fighting, graffiti , it was honestly the best times of my life. Sneaking out of my house to walk down to Newark to the pipeline every Thursday and weekend to see any band that was playing and to just see my friends who would be there for no reason other than it was a place to go.Id wake up and know that id have to turn the brain off till i got through a day of work at a shitty job and then id get to go hang out.Id have no idea what was gonna happen but it was gonna be amazing. It was awesome and there was never any doubts or cares about anything. Somehow in the years that past as those kids went to jail or got kids or just moved away somehow i ended up somewhere else with a new group of kids and i became totally jaded and angry and violent, it just sucked. Every time one of those kids passes away or even Friends outside the scene i had at that time passes i just think if i knew how shitty life without being surrounded by the poorest,ugliest, craziest kids i knew i would've been a thousand times crazier and just appreciated it so much more.Nowadays i sit in a shitty job hating it and seething at the world watching the clock till i can go home, hug my girl watch a movie and go to bed. Occasionally ill read a comic book or something or go to a show to see a friends band, but that means immersing myself in just a see a of kids who i for the most part don't understand, don't like and for the most part completely resent, and i find myself just trying to figure how most of my adult life has been spent as a part of the new jersey hardcore/punk scene and somehow now feel completely removed from it, like I'm some kind of visitor or something.I have some good aspects of my life now, some extremely good aspects and some lifelong friends who make my life at least tolerable, but not a day goes by i don't miss those kids and that era.But i suppose that's how life is for everybody and I'm just being an old cranky bitch who knows.
Also,i for the most part kinda hate the song funerals lyrically sometimes, most songs i sit and try to write something worthwhile to represent the feelings that lead to the song, sorta invest some effort that i feel the topic is due. But then sometimes i have a page of words that just came out in gush from a really low point and i just have to use them because they may not be the most poetic stuff or even make sense but they re real and represent the emotion behind the song better than any lame rhyme i could figure out for a stupid hardcore chant."
The full interview will be appearing in Rocksound magazine in the near future, thank you to Andy Kelham.
"Well the song specifically isn't just about "Funerals" as in someone being buried, Don't get me wrong its definitely a huge influence for the song, but its also about long standing parts of your life that sometimes you maybe take for granted or don't realize how important to you they are and then they're suddenly gone and it either effects your life in a huge way or is just a catalyst for a flood of emotion or realization on how much things have changed,in this case for the worse.Honestly I'm an emotional retard, its feast or famine with me I'm either completely indifferent to the point i have no idea whats wrong with me or I'm just crippled with depression or anger to the point i cant function. For this reason i usually don't attend funerals, I'm either scared ill break down or nervous i don't look upset enough when my brain is actually going a thousand miles a minute.I'm not gonna mention specific names but the one person who passed away a few years ago that really had me thinking about where i started and where i was and the huge distance between the two was a fixture in my life when i first got into punk and hardcore as well as part of the scene where i really started figuring out who i was and wanted to be as a person. When he passed i hadn't spoken to him for about a year and i was just stunned,All these memories of me running around like a psycho with my equally ridiculous friends in the essex/bergen county hardcore/punk "scene", not giving a shit about anything, starting bands, drawing tshirts, fighting, graffiti , it was honestly the best times of my life. Sneaking out of my house to walk down to Newark to the pipeline every Thursday and weekend to see any band that was playing and to just see my friends who would be there for no reason other than it was a place to go.Id wake up and know that id have to turn the brain off till i got through a day of work at a shitty job and then id get to go hang out.Id have no idea what was gonna happen but it was gonna be amazing. It was awesome and there was never any doubts or cares about anything. Somehow in the years that past as those kids went to jail or got kids or just moved away somehow i ended up somewhere else with a new group of kids and i became totally jaded and angry and violent, it just sucked. Every time one of those kids passes away or even Friends outside the scene i had at that time passes i just think if i knew how shitty life without being surrounded by the poorest,ugliest, craziest kids i knew i would've been a thousand times crazier and just appreciated it so much more.Nowadays i sit in a shitty job hating it and seething at the world watching the clock till i can go home, hug my girl watch a movie and go to bed. Occasionally ill read a comic book or something or go to a show to see a friends band, but that means immersing myself in just a see a of kids who i for the most part don't understand, don't like and for the most part completely resent, and i find myself just trying to figure how most of my adult life has been spent as a part of the new jersey hardcore/punk scene and somehow now feel completely removed from it, like I'm some kind of visitor or something.I have some good aspects of my life now, some extremely good aspects and some lifelong friends who make my life at least tolerable, but not a day goes by i don't miss those kids and that era.But i suppose that's how life is for everybody and I'm just being an old cranky bitch who knows.
Also,i for the most part kinda hate the song funerals lyrically sometimes, most songs i sit and try to write something worthwhile to represent the feelings that lead to the song, sorta invest some effort that i feel the topic is due. But then sometimes i have a page of words that just came out in gush from a really low point and i just have to use them because they may not be the most poetic stuff or even make sense but they re real and represent the emotion behind the song better than any lame rhyme i could figure out for a stupid hardcore chant."
The full interview will be appearing in Rocksound magazine in the near future, thank you to Andy Kelham.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
two more days at this job, Im gonna miss it but the new job...yeah,killer.
today i have to do ten thousand things all of wich are boring and lame except for going to my dads house for dinner. sweet.
i would really like to know whats going on with this comic book thing,on the rare occasions i speak to the dudes they say theyre all about it but nothing ever really moves forward. i guess its up to me to kinda grab somebody and shake'em.
i just hope they still want to do it,ive been writing like crazy.
the giant book is moving alot faster than LIH, im having alot of fun with it, writing in book form is so much faster and more fun that writing directly into panel.
I think im just going to write lih in regular format first and then panelize when it comes time to draw it up.
Im writing it as a submission for wizards of coast hopefully for a forgotten realms novel,im using all the characters and monster from the monster manual, but ive been entertaining the idea of just rolling it over into my own little universe.
Not that the FR stuff has been constricting or handicapping but id like to have the book put out somewhere.
im really worried about my lyrics, they make me come off as completely crazy,its a little embarrassing.
agnes drunk is the most ridiculous thing ever.
today i have to do ten thousand things all of wich are boring and lame except for going to my dads house for dinner. sweet.
i would really like to know whats going on with this comic book thing,on the rare occasions i speak to the dudes they say theyre all about it but nothing ever really moves forward. i guess its up to me to kinda grab somebody and shake'em.
i just hope they still want to do it,ive been writing like crazy.
the giant book is moving alot faster than LIH, im having alot of fun with it, writing in book form is so much faster and more fun that writing directly into panel.
I think im just going to write lih in regular format first and then panelize when it comes time to draw it up.
Im writing it as a submission for wizards of coast hopefully for a forgotten realms novel,im using all the characters and monster from the monster manual, but ive been entertaining the idea of just rolling it over into my own little universe.
Not that the FR stuff has been constricting or handicapping but id like to have the book put out somewhere.
im really worried about my lyrics, they make me come off as completely crazy,its a little embarrassing.
agnes drunk is the most ridiculous thing ever.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
5/25/8
today i went grocery shopping and my mom let me do the deli counter...BWAHAHA
my mother likes to horde her money and live like were on government checks but i enjoy eating the food of humans.
i got all the good boars head shit and got the killer red potato salad and the coleslaw that you want to eat not that shite soupy shit she swears is from heaven.
my victorys are small and sparse, but fullfilling none the less
my mother likes to horde her money and live like were on government checks but i enjoy eating the food of humans.
i got all the good boars head shit and got the killer red potato salad and the coleslaw that you want to eat not that shite soupy shit she swears is from heaven.
my victorys are small and sparse, but fullfilling none the less
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